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I Hated Accepting That I Was Depressed At The Age Of 17, Here’s How Writing Helped Me 

Depression is not what you think, it is much painful and suffocating. 

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What is depression? No, it is not staring at the ceiling fan or the urge to buy a blade so that you can cut your hand. That is not what depression means. Bollywood and cliche things have made depression a very wrong and negative thing to talk about. But then there have been films like Dear Zindagi which were made to break this whole stereotype around it. 

I was once depressed. I had just finished my school and was gearing up to enter the wide world of opportunities and dreams. But just when the golden years of my life began depression had hit me. Imagine an ever-smiling girl who always makes everyone feel cheerful and happy, gets depressed and less motivated towards leading a healthy and beautiful life. 

It is as if one of the most beautiful flowers in your garden suddenly shrinks. Depression took me into the denial mode for about a year. I could speak about anything in front of thousands of people before hitting that phase but when I entered this depressing phase; I stopped talking to everyone including my parents and best friend. My mood would remain unstable, I was oversensitive towards things and panic attacks was a normal everyday thing. I tried to mask all these symptoms because I didn't want anyone to know about it. They say you can hide everything from the world but your parents will know things even before you know it.